Thoughts of Salvin

its been a while and i still cant stop thinking of you you seem to have moved on while i am left motionless i smile, i live and exist simply for you time passes, seasons change yet i am to achieve freedom from sadness each day seems harder than the last, harder and harder why has this feeling of loss yet not seized you made me strong, and you went away leaving me even weaker i have tried all i can and all i know, but this pain still has not eased i don't understand why i still compare beauty to you you are still everything that means something to me i feel empty with each breath i take without you i have lost the need, want and motivation to be everything i can be without you even the air seems to slowly suffocate the water i drink doesn't seem to quench my thirst without you i cannot think straight or contemplate is this all because you are the woman i loved first

so cold and chilling a night, he sits alone in the dark, all alone only a bottle of liquor and a packet of cigarettes, accompany him till the night is gone he doesnt move an inch from his posture or solitude time passes yet so slow, freezing him as cold winds blow nothing seems to bother, nothing does he know he sits still as his body freezes more and more his eyes distant from reality his face with a frown as if to cry he seems to loose hope as memmories flash by after what seems ages he sighs he remembers the pain, the betrayal he felt a pain and a past that he never dealt eyes red in hurt, and a smile that melts he remembers all the rage and sorrow he felt intoxicating to a point of blurred conscience he seems to have yet loose patience his heartbeat echoing in the silence trying to think of excuses and reasons loosing all faith in all that he loved each hurtful memmory dripping in the form of tears burning his pain with ciggarettes and releasing as smoke all that was, that is and w...

moments pass yet i stand still momentarily lost in the past days go by, time passes yet nothing makes me forget what has passed memmories haunt n taunt me i sit in a corner wondering what i have become a smile i fake to survive and to everyone a joker i am but i am sad to some this pain can never ever seize i cover it up with my smile even when i just close my eyes i see u no matter what i do u r in my mind all the while i feel lost i am confused i am trapped in a world of darkness chained and locked and confined banished to feel only sorrow n never to enjoy happiness forgetting u seems to be a task for the gods no where i go, no matter what i do i have tried everything including taking my life but i cannot seem to forget you