still in my mind


moments pass yet i stand still
momentarily lost in the past
days go by, time passes
yet nothing makes me forget what has passed

memmories haunt n taunt me
i sit in a corner wondering what i have become
a smile i fake to survive
and to everyone a joker i am but i am sad to some

this pain can never ever seize
i cover it up with my smile
even when i just close my eyes i see u
no matter what i do u r in my mind all the while

i feel lost i am confused
i am trapped in a world of darkness
chained and locked and confined
banished to feel only sorrow n never to enjoy happiness

forgetting u seems to be a task for the gods
no where i go, no matter what i do
i have tried everything including taking my life
but i cannot seem to forget you

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