if it may it may: Death note......

the heart beats again or so i thought
till the beats begin to lower as time past
heartbeats reduce as they deepen
as each beat draws closer to the last

the time has come to meet an end
goodbye my loved ones, goodbye my friends
as i leave you all this way
sorry is all that i have to say

i have found a solution to end my sorrow
a means to end my endless wallow
Death is the only way to my freedom
from being so worthless and lonesome

i have lost all need to breathe
i have only pain, and my heart bleeds
my worth i myself have begun to doubt
all i can do is wallow in my pathetic pout

a few words to those i love and care
those who were the reason for so long i fought
reminisce the moments you spent with me
remember me happy, not sad, and good thought

dear Dad, i know you had so much in store for me
but i am sorry, i give up, please forgive me
my loving sisters who love me most
i wish i could look over you always, at least as a ghost

my dear friends, the best of friends, a blessing from above
i am sorry for any grief and thankful for you love
Indran my brother, the molding was too much to take
and this sword has been beaten too much and close to break

sisters Melanie and Nirukshi, your love protected me for so long
but no longer will i need protection, for soon i will be long gone
the trio to cheer my low days,Vindu, Fazna and Dinithi
wouldn't have wanted any other to be with other than you three

Husein and Shabeeb, Thank you for the times at the chair
a means of releasing depression, sadness, sorrow and despair
class mates and colleagues i met along the road
sorry for any inconvenience, now i have to ease my load

Abeer and Salrin, forgive me for abandoning you
but please remember that i love you
i cannot live no more, the pain is too much to bear
i'm leaving but about you two, i do care

Salrin take care of Abeer for me
love her a lot and be her friend
be her mother and give her love for me
be with her always until the end

Abeer my darling i am leaving you
the sweetest thing i am finding hard to leave
i'm sorry for leaving you like this my little sister
but i have stopped having faith, and forgotten to believe

Dad, i am weak, i cannot take anymore
i'm sorry i couldn't make you proud
my heart hurts too much that my life cannot continue
i wish i was be the son that you could call as yours out loud

you are great, you are the perfect father
i'm sorry for all what i put you through
you were good to me even after the loss of my mother
dad, the last thing i want to say is I Love you

i had you all but lonely i felt
it's not your fault but its the way i felt
a pain so deep and hard on my heart
a pain so great it tore my heart apart

love is the one thing we seek all through out
the one thing we cannot be alive without
air, water and food will help you live
you will be living but not alive

last but never least the one whose name is not mentioned
please don't blame yourself, this is my own decision
a life without you is a life which has no meaning to be
i love with all my heart, but please forgive me

i take my life with a final claim
the loss of my life has no one to blame
i take this decision on my own
and i take my life for i cant bear being alone

with this i take all promises i took from you all
with this i depart bidding farewell to all
with this i am long gone and forget me not
with this i am alive....... not

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