Thoughts of Salvin

its been a while and i still cant stop thinking of you you seem to have moved on while i am left motionless i smile, i live and exist simply for you time passes, seasons change yet i am to achieve freedom from sadness each day seems harder than the last, harder and harder why has this feeling of loss yet not seized you made me strong, and you went away leaving me even weaker i have tried all i can and all i know, but this pain still has not eased i don't understand why i still compare beauty to you you are still everything that means something to me i feel empty with each breath i take without you i have lost the need, want and motivation to be everything i can be without you even the air seems to slowly suffocate the water i drink doesn't seem to quench my thirst without you i cannot think straight or contemplate is this all because you are the woman i loved first

so cold and chilling a night, he sits alone in the dark, all alone only a bottle of liquor and a packet of cigarettes, accompany him till the night is gone he doesnt move an inch from his posture or solitude time passes yet so slow, freezing him as cold winds blow nothing seems to bother, nothing does he know he sits still as his body freezes more and more his eyes distant from reality his face with a frown as if to cry he seems to loose hope as memmories flash by after what seems ages he sighs he remembers the pain, the betrayal he felt a pain and a past that he never dealt eyes red in hurt, and a smile that melts he remembers all the rage and sorrow he felt intoxicating to a point of blurred conscience he seems to have yet loose patience his heartbeat echoing in the silence trying to think of excuses and reasons loosing all faith in all that he loved each hurtful memmory dripping in the form of tears burning his pain with ciggarettes and releasing as smoke all that was, that is and w...

moments pass yet i stand still momentarily lost in the past days go by, time passes yet nothing makes me forget what has passed memmories haunt n taunt me i sit in a corner wondering what i have become a smile i fake to survive and to everyone a joker i am but i am sad to some this pain can never ever seize i cover it up with my smile even when i just close my eyes i see u no matter what i do u r in my mind all the while i feel lost i am confused i am trapped in a world of darkness chained and locked and confined banished to feel only sorrow n never to enjoy happiness forgetting u seems to be a task for the gods no where i go, no matter what i do i have tried everything including taking my life but i cannot seem to forget you

you are the reason i live, you are the beats of my heart you are the breath i take, if you leave my heart would be ripped apart a life without you bears no meaning and i have no want to live such a life for you i am on my knees please don't make me loose my life though i am so far away i can still feel you breath in mine though i am not with you all the time all your thoughts are always in my mind no words in my vocabulary can ever explain this love that i feel just for you a feeling that is so obsessive that i have no life without you every beat in my heart that beats beat just to live by you even my death is just another gift i can gift for you this need that i have to have you with me overcomes me every night and day bit by bit my resolution is broken and my soul nears you day by day not a minute nor moment i can stay away from you just let me make you mine and show my love that is forever for you let me live by your love or let me die of loneliness keep me closer than your shad...

give me all, give me all of you not in percentages not as fractions give me each of your thoughts keep me in your heart and in all your emotions let me be the one to fill all your dreams the one you want to be with you always want me like u want air, like the blood in your veins want me today want me tomorrow and want me everyday drown me in your love let me swim in your ocean of love tell me all what you want me to do to you want me as madly as i need you hug me like a little girl hugs a teddy bear when scared need me like a soul needs a body need me like rest when haven't slept in days need me and only me and and not just somebody want me like a drop of water when in thirst want me like a baby wants its mother love me in the same level a mother loves her children love me and want me like no other let me drown in you love hold me tight even if i die let me drown in you love i really do want to and this is no lie

the heart beats again or so i thought till the beats begin to lower as time past heartbeats reduce as they deepen as each beat draws closer to the last the time has come to meet an end goodbye my loved ones, goodbye my friends as i leave you all this way sorry is all that i have to say i have found a solution to end my sorrow a means to end my endless wallow Death is the only way to my freedom from being so worthless and lonesome i have lost all need to breathe i have only pain, and my heart bleeds my worth i myself have begun to doubt all i can do is wallow in my pathetic pout a few words to those i love and care those who were the reason for so long i fought reminisce the moments you spent with me remember me happy, not sad, and good thought dear Dad, i know you had so much in store for me but i am sorry, i give up, please forgive me my loving sisters who love me most i wish i could look over you always, at least as a ghost my dear friends, the best of friends, a blessing from above ...

His heart skipped beats just for her, Back then his heart just beat for her One beat, two beat, three beat, four, now his heart just doesn't beat anymore a beast of hate, a creature of loathe, a man so lonely on an empty road an empty feeling that causes pain, a slit on his wrist and blood dripping with the rain life flashing bye, a distinct pain on his wrist, as his life leaves his body, he reminisces life seemed beautiful, but only momentarily, reality kicks in, n his joy diminishes once that were smiles, now just an empty frown, jovial was he before, but no longer is he the clown heartbeats changed the rhythm it beat, a beat that was rhythmic is now like a sign of defeat he sees the people once so close, as they appear in flashes, the truth disclosed peace and harmony run out the back door, his pain is so much he couldn't take it anymore the world was a place of life and wonder, the world was a place with happiness and splendor defeated, beaten, in sorrow he throws his life,...